Where does the time go?

This about sums it up!

Getting Lost Along the Way

Back at it and feeling ALIVE! I've only had a week off but it's so nice to get back to the program and plan! 

This has been a very long road and you get lost along the way sometimes. I have been very faithful to my fitness routines/programs but the meal plans well that's a different story. I seemed to have fallen off the wagon - I would be good during the week and then blow it on the weekends. I am sure so many people can relate to this. It seems like I keep needing to learn this lesson over and over again. DIET IS EVERYTHING! What we put in shows with the outcome.I have managed to continue my vigorous workouts but gained weight - it's simple you cannot get results and cheat - you are only cheating yourself! I'm human and I failed time and time again but I'm back on track so let's see how far it takes me:) Failure is all part of success:)

I will keep pursuing this dream because it truly makes me feel ALIVE!

You will care!

 

 

This is the most TRUTHFUL statement I can make!
I have found in my journey that I try to not let a slip up bother me but here is the truth for me. I fall off the wagon and then it is like an avalanche - one small cheat leads to another or a larger one and then it is out of control and you wonder why you are not where you want to be. I looked back and saw that my diet was suffering - not during the week, I was bang on, but on the weekends when I was home. I would miss meals/snacks and then have a little chocolate which leads to sour jujubes and on and on. Always thinking its okay I;ll just work it off tomorrow but that doesn't do it and the more you eat the sweet the more you want it.

The 3 of us

This is my beautiful family. I am truly blessed to have such amazing daughters. Both of my girls are also into fitness and hopefully this will continue on with them throughout their lives.

One day

Life is so funny sometimes. Everywhere you go people struggle, people are stressed out, never have enough time for anything. Are we really living the lives we want? I am guessing not! Most of us work to survive and work too much or too hard and don't love what we do but we have no choice but to do it so we can survive. 

Life is about living - taking chances- doing what makes you feel alive. It is scary to put yourself out there and try things or take that leap of faith but living with the "what ifs" are even worse.

I have just started to take some of these chances and I haven't always been successful but I tried and at least I can say that. I have pride in knowing that I pursued some of my dreams and I will continue to move forward and pursue more. I want to look back on my life and say I loved deeply, I took some chances, I was successful and I impacted people lives in a positive way. Will your life be worth watching?

I see strength!

When I first saw the above picture, I immediately related to it. It made me go back and think about all those mistakes, failure, heartache, disappointments in my past but only momentarily because I was learning and taking valuable lessons from all of it. I would spend time wondering if it was ever going to get better, if it would ever stop being such a struggle.

 

The truth is today I do look in the mirror and I am a different person. I SEE STRENGTH, PRIDE, and BEAUTY like never before. I am no longer burdened with guilt and disappointment. I am not holding any grudges and gave forgiveness where it was needed. I am setting goals and obtaining them and this is being seen by very important people - my daughters - this is the kind of examples I want to set for them.

 

My life is good right now and I haven't remembered being so content. I am ALIVE, not just breathing!

 

 

THE LION

 

While at the gym last week I was working out with a guy who mentioned how he works out all the time to impress the ladies and he gave me the impression that the only reason he worked out was to make other people like him or accept him. I told him that I really didn't care what anyone thought of me or what I looked like. He seemed stunned that I said this. I then continued to tell him that I was at the gym for me, I love what I am doing and that is because it isn't for anyone else. I don't care if it impresses you that I lift more than someone or that I live at the gym or that I am fit and look good in a pair of jeans. I am healthy and strong and feel great and its for me.

 

I wonder if as we age we care less and less what people think of us and start to care enough about ourselves more. I haven't always thought this way, I also was like that guy at the gym. I worried about what people thought all the time and hoped they would like me and accept me. I wanted to be whatever it was they wanted. I would say YES even when I wanted to say NO. This is not the case today, I live my life and if you don't like me or you don't like what I'm doing, its okay I really don't mind anymore and you have every right to your opinion however it is no concern of mine!